Betrayed



Sad.



I guess I shouldn't feel this way. I mean, what's it really for anyways? I just feel left behind. Yes, I understand I like to come off as being dependant, seeing as working or living in large communities makes me sick enough to throw up, but that doesn't even begin to hide the fact that I need help. I want to be near to my friends, and not end up living with these girls that will hate me because I'm weird. I was lucky to find friends that liked me for being me this year. And somehow, I managed to fuck it all up because I'm so goddamn cold all the time.

Sigh.

I guess I won't know until the day of sign up happens, but it's making me so nervous that I feel like a walking zombie.

Plus, I have no idea what I want to do with my life. I could be a highschool biology or anatomy teacher, I think I would like that. But I would also like working in a lab, or being a genetic counselor. It's just...the job prospects and schooling all makes it so dizzying that I'm confused to point of sobbing.

Life has reduced me to this pathetic lump. I have barely left room since Friday of last week. I don't work out anymore, barely find Halo as enjoyable as it was. I'm legitimately concerned for myself. I'm not sure if I even want to come back next year. And hell, I would talk to someone about it, but all of my friends seem to have more important things on their minds than being able to listen and provide a false prospect of hope. Telling me that it isn't going to get better, doesn't help me at all. Thanks.

Similarly, I'm sorry I haven't been keeping up with my photo blog. I just really haven't felt like it. Maybe today is a good time.

Too Much Sass!

Hello all! Today I'm starting my magical journey into the 365 photo challenge! Though I must admit, it is likely that I will indeed forget some days. :C

DAY 1

I spent my morning freakin' and tweakin' over a quiz and exam in my history class. Turns out, I didn't do as hot as I wanted, but I can't change the past! After RHAA, for those of you who don't know, it's an on-campus housing organization that is dedicated to the residents and for the residents, or some snazzy shtuff like that. But any-a-who, after RHAA, I went with some sweet friends to the mall, where we chilled and acted like complete dorks.  (See photo example!)

I look like a total creeper, and my hands were shaking really bad, so the picture isn't the best. But I tried man, I tried!

On  a more negative side, I got into a minor fight with a good friend tonight. And I took in a lot of hurtful attitude from her, so I'm sort of bummed. At the same time, I'm excited because Lady Heather and I are going to breakfast tomorrow before class! Woot woot! And another photo to come tomorrow!

Goodnight all! I'm in the mood for some Inception and then bed! Or maybe...bed and watch Inception tomorrow. Lol.